On the Cusp of Creation: Seizures and Synapses

Session intention: I’d recently had experiences labeled as “seizures”. I wanted more information about these experiences.

The day prior to this session, I had a mini “seizure”– blanking out for about a minute while observing an overwhelmed brain state. I kept trying to articulate, but couldn’t. As you would imagine, these symptoms have been quite concerning.

I wanted to know MORE about this brain state. What was causing it? Dehydration? Something energetic?

Why am I having these symptoms?

We decided to ask my Soul during this Beyond Quantum Healing Session facilitated by @SarahDescending

about ten minutes in, I’d met an important guide and been gifted a necklace- a diamond. It reminds me of the Hope Diamond, which I’ve had the pleasure of viewing in person at the Smithsonian museum.

Here’s the transcript and video from this part of the session:

Julia Wagner: I keep hearing Hope Diamond, and it’s almost like they’re… they’re like, go with that, that it is hope, it is… it can… it is that same love, hope. Love, hope, faceted reality. There’s something about faceted reality.

@SarahDescending: Hmm, yes. It’s a good phrase.

Julia Wagner: It’s like there’s something missing.

@SarahDescending: from reality? Or… something else.

Julia Wagner: No, it’s like, in my body, in my mind, or in my… there’s something, and it’s like the word that wants to… It’s, like, things that hold things together. things that… Merge. There’s something missing, like a… like an in-between state.

@SarahDescending: Okay.

Julia Wagner: It’s like, you know, if you look at a yin-yang. There’s the colors, you know, it’s like there’s the duality, the spectrum isn’t there, and it’s like there’s something missing, like a connective… Something not connecting right. Something not…

@SarahDescending: When I picture the yin-yang, and you say there’s something missing, it’s like, you know, how it’s divided, and then the dot, the dot is the other color. in the yin-yang, I saw, like, is one of the dots not there, or not the right color? Like, as you were describing that, that was what I saw, or perceived.

Julia Wagner: Yeah, it’s like if there were muscles that didn’t have ligaments or something, you know, or like a… Something connective. It’s like where one thing goes in another, where something meets. like, when I started to… have that. seizure… Whatever. It’s like I said something about lips. Something lips, connectivity. meeting point. A transition. Connection. I’m not quite sure, it doesn’t… it’s not coming through to the…

@SarahDescending: Fine language?

Julia Wagner: Yeah, it’s… it’s… and even… even in the language, it’s represented as, like, missing words, missing sounds, missing understand… miss, like, the connections. The transitions, there’s a… There’s something that needs to… be more readily present. Something that needs to be more… It’s just your compassion. Compassion.

@SarahDescending: All of us?

Julia Wagner: It’s just… For Julia, especially, but I mean, it wouldn’t hurt for everyone. That’s the… it’s like compassion. It’s like a different… it’s love, but it’s like love in action. Love is the… the default. And, like, that’s what we… That’s what we want. That’s… that’s what we want.

@SarahDescending: Love in action, yeah.

Julia Wagner: Love in action as the default, not as the secondary option. Not as the afterthought, or not as the corrective action, but we want it as the default.

@SarahDescending: Yes. We’re getting there.

Julia Wagner: We’re getting there.

@SarahDescending️: Yes.

Julia Wagner: There’s an emphasis not to diminish what we’ve done. And how far we’ve come. And not to focus on the… what we would perceive as our shortcomings in this area. Too much, just to acknowledge that they, that they exist, and, like, that’s enough to motivate this one to keep going forward, and so that’s what… We keep staying awake. And we just keep motivating her, just one little step at a time.

@SarahDescending: She is making progress, isn’t she?

Julia Wagner: Yes. Yes. It doesn’t matter.

Two minute pause…

I believe the IDEA that there is something called “progress” was what the Higher Self perceived doesn’t really matter- It’s all a GAME, a manifestation of desire. It’s already done. It just IS. There are no words.

Then I had what looks like a mini seizure. There is a LONG pause-about 90 seconds, and physicality- like I’m biting my tongue. I remember spacing out and having to clarify what was being said/feeling “spaced out” during the session.

@SarahDescending: What doesn’t matter? (pause) Does anything matter?

Julia Wagner: Hmm. What did you say? I’m sorry.

@SarahDescending: Oh, I said you had, you had said nothing matters, or it doesn’t matter, and then I waited a beat and asked if anything matters, and we got a yes nod.

Julia Wagner: Hmm. I don’t know, I don’t remember anymore.

@SarahDescending: That’s okay. Just… continue forward. As to what might be…

In the next chapter of the session I see the perspective of a man, one of my ancestors, I re-visit the destruction of a planet in the Lyran system, and most importantly, we remove judgments surrounding my Dad’s thought form of “Why can’t I stop this? /Why can’t I prevent suffering/destruction?”

It’s at this point in the session that my Higher Self comes back to the idea of these seizure-like symptoms, and verifies that these each represent a Timeline Shift.

We’re ALWAYS shifting, of course, but not without physical reflections of these inner changes.

My seizures are these reflections.

Knowing while not knowing. Synchronicity jumping out at your. Being presented with affirmations of your multi dimensional nature. These are all SIGNS that we’re more than only physical beings.

How do these signs show up for you?

Can you sense the ETERNITY that exists between every single moment? Can you feel the Soul dancing between each and every one of your cells?

How do you communicate this feeling?

Later that night, I’m describing these experiences, especially my first “mini” seizure to my best friend. She mentioned a seizure is like a “lightning storm” in the brain. None of my occurrences felt like THAT…

I decided, I’d let my FINGERS do the talking. Just like automatic writing, I allowed myself to start typing, and this is what came out…