As I write this, it’s been 5 years since I
received Gohonzon, or as we call it
“Gohozon Birthday”.
To celebrate, I decided to describe WHY I began this practice.
There are certain inception points in certain stories.
I might call this experience the “bud” of my awakening. It’s certainly when I began actively engaging with reflective philosophy. What started it all?
Ghostbusters. Yep. I was watching the movie. All of a sudden I had the realization that the environment- what I was seeing and hearing- was a DIRECT reflection of conscious interaction.
“I’m affecting this,” I realized. That was an “aha!” moment, as I witnessed my thoughts passing in front of me on the computer screen. I could hear-and even SEE- my thoughts. What was I focusing on? Nothing constructive, I realized, it was a neurotic fixation about what someone else was doing. In the movie Bill Murray is pursuing Sigourney Weaver, and the dialogue mirrored what my mental process kept doing-it was circling.
This person I kept thinking about was in the other room. I wasn’t creating this scene alone. I noticed, by seeing what I was creating, I could ALSO pick up on what HE was doing. Interesting. But still, I’d prefer not to focus on him. Nevertheless, my thoughts still kept coming back to my friend, what he was doing, and then wanting to stop this cycle.
Why can’t I DIRECT my thoughts? What would happen if I could? Seems like that might be more useful than this obsessive compulsion programming.
Since I’m helping to create THIS world unconsciously, I considered, what could I create with directed, constructive, less neurotic thoughts? What if I weren’t set on repeat?
I’d heard and believed that “we create our reality” since I was a kid. But honestly engaging with the philosophy? That idea had never popped into my mind before, and the second it did embracing it seemed like the easiest decision in the world. I made a determination: I’d do “better”. I’d ACTIVELY engage with my reality.
That very moment my friend walked into the room. He stood at formal attention, in a way that I might associate with a butler, or trusted servant. He offered me a “precious morsel”. It’s somewhat important to note that he called it something DIFFERENT, and in a language I didn’t understand- but I understood the TRANSLATION. It was a “treat”.
As he made this offer, I remembered something he’d said months before. This same friend stood in my kitchen and said- quite cryptically- “One day I’ll offer a woman a “precious morsel” and she’ll take it. But even as I offer it again, she’ll decline”. Again, it was the alien sounding term, a term I can’t recall, which he used to convey the idea of a luxurious treat.
He held out his hand. I took the morsel. It was invisible. There wasn’t ANYTHING there. But I took it anyway.
As I accepted it, I became a part of a bigger scene. No longer did it seem to my own and my friends thoughts effecting the environment. A Higher Power was in charge.
The room became part of the movie.
My couch became a rolling chair.
My friend turned into every male character in my life in a fluid motion as he danced comically to the song “Cleaning up the Town”.
My chair spun around I was IN the elevator with the Ghostbusters going up to the 12th floor.
That’s the “easy” part to describe. I was shown lessons in the space. Mainly I was being shown that ascension involves what might be called “servitude”. The servant really is the master.
I was humbled.
The spinning stopped.
My friend looked at his wrist as if he was wearing a watch (he wasn’t) and he counted down…
3…2… 1…
Then the elevator doors opened in the movie and everyone was on the ground floor again. I was back in normal, conscious awareness once more. Before I had much time to integrate or ask what had happened…
“Would you like another?” My friend asked.
I declined.
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The experience was enough to open me us to the state of pure wonder. What happened? How did my friend facilitate that? He “doesn’t remember it”, of course. And the big question: How does one best serve?
I knew what a “Bodhisattva” embodied. When I was 8 years old I read about beings who chose to incarnate on Earth for the sake of others- they’d stick around the Earth realm helping humans until the humans decided to recognize their OWN enlightened forms. That was the highest form of service I could imagine.
I’d heard the mantra Nam Myoho Renge Kyo in the past. A trusted friend introduced me to his practice of chanting this mantra 6 years prior to this experience. I’d seen how chanting helped others, and it occurred to me I could chant. I researched it in depth. It was a dedication to observing the “Wonderful Law”.
Ultimately it is a dedication to PAY ATTENTION.
That’s exactly what I was seeking. I took this practice to equal the Bodhisatva vow. I could practice, focus my thoughts, and serve others in a way that resonated with my childhood ideals. Chanting was my path, so I decided to take the first step.
I started chanting “Nam Myoho Renge Kyo” right away. I didn’t tell anyone, not even my friend. I chanted in my closet- literally. As I struggled to keep up with the pace of Nam Myoho Renge Kyo being chanted on YouTube, I though it would be nice for it to go slower. The video slowed down! I now realize why. I had aligned my desires with a higher cause” and in “effect” I was able to perceive reality in a way that fit my desire, a desire to benefit myself and others.
The next day the REAL magic happened. What they call my “Human Revolution”, my change in thinking. That morning my friend said something that upset me. I heard myself thinking; “What a jerk! I could be mad all day about this. He should know better than to say that.” I’ve come to recognize this voice as the “smaller self”, the aspect that has a limited perspective; the part that likes to judge, hold onto things and blame others. I tend to notice this voice on the left side, and it sounds a bit masculine. It’s my ego.
But next I heard a TOTALLY DIFFERENT VOICE coming from the right side. This voice I’d never heard before. It was soft, reassuring and trusting. She said, “But you don’t have to be mad at all, if you don’t want to”.
Wow. Novel idea. To choose to be happy instead.
I took that option, and spent the day happily doing other more constructive activities. I haven’t regretted it since.
Soon after, I received Gohonzon. April 9th 2016. It’s been exactly five years from that date as I write this. Gohonzon is a cosmic mandala upon which Nichiren Buddhist meditate. This “object of devotion” helps to focus the mind and evokes a higher understanding of the philosophy contained withing The Lotus Sutra. The Lotus Sutra is one of the Buddha’s most highly praised teachings, and its title translates to “Myoho Renge Kyo” in Japanese
Nam means “dedication“, so chanting “Nam Myoho Renge Kyo” while viewing this diagram of characters from the Lotus Sutra promotes a special kind of activation. The frequency is quite powerful, so if it resonates with you, give it a try. Here’s a video about how to chant.
From that time forward, the benefits, synchronicities and affirmations have been accelerating. I was led to QHHT & BQH. I became an ordained minister. I’m able to connect with my “higher self” and more fully embody my “buddha nature”. With the broader perspectives that chanting engages I’m able to help others create more harmonious life-states.
I interpret the “myoho” “renge” and “kyo” as referencing quantum states- the entangled nature of time, space, and consciousness itself.
Myoho represents oneness in duality. Myo means ‘mystic’, ‘wonderful’, ‘unseen’ and is feminine. Ho means ‘law’, ‘physical aspect’ and ‘father’. Together Myoho means “Mystic Law“. All differences can be transmuted by seeing a bigger picture.
Renge references the simultaneous nature of time. Renge means “lotus”, a plant which seeds and flowers at the same time. Even as we create an aligned CAUSE the EFFECT is manifest. We can align our causes with ambitious goals as we see “actual proof” created by practice.
Kyo means ‘sutra’, ‘stitch’ or ‘thread’ and represents the voices of all living beings connecting in harmony.
These and other Buddhist observations fit very nicely with what I observe during the Quantum Healing Sessions I facilitate.
I don’t claim to know what the future holds, but the last 5 years have been SIGNIFICANTLY DIFFERENT than the first 37 were. Biggest change? I’m happy. And when I’m not, I know I have the CHOICE to rise above my temporary mood or circumstances. Sound appealing? Consider a daily meditation practice, or consider adding “Nam Myoho Renge Kyo” to your daily routine. Observe your results. I have stories upon stories from people who chant who have their own “actual proof” and of course I have volumes of my own!
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